The answer to those very dangerous questions is a very enthusiastic, “Yes!” I’ll gladly share what I’m thinking and learning, even though I might never shut up about it (I may have talked about it nonstop for two hours, while running errands with my mom the other day). 

It all started when I learned more about Dr. Francis Collins, specifically his website called Biologos.org. At the time, I was a very, very new Christian. I didn’t even know I was Christian at that point, as I was still very critical of the faith (which I still am, but that doesn’t mean I’m not a Christian. God can handle my questions and rants. In fact, I think He enjoys it). Dr. Collins (the same doctor who made Trikafta possible and who personally researched phage virus therapy for me, because my mom is close friends with his cousin) has written extensively on his journey to Christianity as someone who grew up in a secular home and studied science in college. He fully accepts the fact of evolution, and points out that the story of Adam and Eve is more or less a Hebrew creation myth, passed down from one generation to the next over thousands of years. Nearly every culture has these ancient myths. Yet, just because the bible may not be scientifically true, it’s still true in lots of other ways, such as morally and intrinsically. Things don’t have to be literally and scientifically true to be true. I hope that makes sense. 

From there, I discovered Dr. John Walton, another scientist who grew up in a secular household and became a Christian as an adult. He wrote a book called The Lost World of the Flood, which I haven’t read yet but I’ve heard him talk about it. Thanks to him and Dr. Collins, all of my scientific issues with the bible were dispelled. With science outa the way, I began to question the bible’s morality. 

I wondered why the bible read (at least in English) that homosexuality is a sin, even though it’s clear that people in the LGBT community didn’t choose to be born the way they were, and are totally capable of having loving, lasting relationships with their partners. Also, nobody is being harmed by people who prefer to be called they/them, but young people unfortunately commit suicide very often when they're rejected for who they are. Why does Christianity seem to condone those who don't want to respect those whose gender identities are different from their biological parts, but condemn those who just want to be called "she" instead of "he"?

I wondered why God created a world full of suffering when the bible read (again, at least in English) that God created everything very good and without sin and death. I wondered why God specifically created me, knowing I’d be born into a world of suffering. And how He could knit every baby in their mothers’ wombs, knowing damn well many of them would be aborted, or stillborn, or be born without vital organs and severely malformed, and die soon after birth? How could a loving, perfect God create such horrific lives, and allow such terrible things to happen?

Then, I discovered Dr. Michael Heiser, as well as a couple of youtubers that I mentioned before. They helped me answer those questions, and many others, and I’m still learning and growing with them everyday. I also know the writer behind Adamantium Joy, who is also reading the same heavy theological stuff I am and suffers from the same health condition I have.