I don't cope with loneliness or depression in destructive ways. Sure, I may cry for a few days or sleep it off, but I never have and never will turn to drugs or alcohol. I already take too many pills to count, and I found the taste of alcohol way too strong when I took communion at an old Lutheran church in Riverdale, North Dakota. I didn't expect all the communion cups to be wine, but they were, and I spent a good hour eating spicy food in an attempt to get rid of the aftertaste. 

I don't have friends to sneak out with or do dumb things with. Even if I had friends like that, I doubt I'd take the offer. I don't spend an hour every morning trying to make myself pretty. I don't use anyone else's preferences to measure my value. My value is immeasurable, and if everyone understood that their value was immeasurable, then the world would be a much better place. Of course, people are prone to falling into social herd behaviors. So they do things that they wouldn't be doing if they didn't feel socially obligated to do it. Part of that social obligation seems to be picking on the people who don't feel socially obligated to do anything. That's why I've never made close friends with anyone, and why I keep my distance from people who feel socially obligated to do certain things. 

Society has treated me worse than crap over the years, so I don't feel like I owe anything to it. These days, people do treat me a lot better, but I think that's only because I've grown up, and have turned into something people don't want to disrespect. That, and I've strayed away from my peers, so my only friends are adults, and they're my parents' friends. Adults are definitely more mature than my peers, so it makes things easier for me. I still don't fit in, but at least I'm not bullied or disrespected by most of the adults like my peers have done to me. There's a few adults out there that have bullied me like my peers have, but they're in my past, and I'm healing the wounds they caused, slowly but surely.