People think I have some serious issues to work out with myself, which is true. But they think I need to fit society's mold, which is not what I need to do. Instead, I've embraced my craziness, embraced the true country tomboy lifestyle, and now I am basically trying to see how many people I can offend by just being me. I put the "ass" in "class", and I'm proud of that! I'm also proud of my craziness. I mean, what would you think if you saw a teenage girl in cowboy boots, jeans, and a camo hoodie, with her camo cap pulled down to conceal her eyes, playing with an aggressive snake she found on some trail at a suburban park? No wonder people think I'm crazy!

Naturally, I've separated myself from the world. I don't care what people think of me, or what society thinks I should be. I think for myself, live for myself, and just focus on being myself. God made me this way for a reason. He doesn't make mistakes. When things get hard, I pray, I read the bible, and I force myself to understand that God doesn't make mistakes, and whatever I think is wrong with me isn't actually wrong. I'm just different, and being different is ok. 

I could very easily play the victim, but I don't. I don't want to do that to myself. I get that I was dealt a bad hand, in society's eyes anyway. But in my eyes, I was blessed with a curse. From a young age, I learned to live with that curse. While the bullying was harsh and life is still lonely, I've embraced that stuff. I get that I'm strange, but my strangeness makes me interesting, and it forces me to be real. I can't hide in or from the crowd. If my clothes don't point me out already, my cough, my voice, my face, my walk; basically everything about me picks me out. I can't hide, and running is for cowards, so I just hold my head up and get on with life the best way I know how.