For almost two years, I haven't been feeling myself. I've been sick, underweight, and overall just not where I used to be. However, that's all about to change.

With the diagnosis of CF-Related-Diabetes (CFRD), which is an inevitable consequence of CF when it attacks the pancreas, as it does in me, I will have to adapt again. Luckily, the insulin will only be supplemental. I'll only take one small dose of it in the mornings and be covered for the rest of the day. CFRD isn't like type 1 or 2 Diabetes. The treatment is different because the disease is different.

I still don't know that much about it, other than CFRD makes me both insulin deficient and insulin resistant, but CFRD doesn't necessarily dictate what I can and cannot eat. I'll still stay on my current diet, though doctors lectured me about the importance of carbs in my diet as well. Carbs will get my health and weight back up to where it should be, especially when I start insulin. But, for the next two weeks, I'll be closely monitored without insulin, so doctors can see what spikes my blood sugar, when, and how high, so they can give me a detailed plan of action.

I never really accepted CFRD. I changed my lifestyle completely seven years ago when I first developed it, which reversed some of the effects. However, because CF is an incurable progressive disease, it still eventually catches up to a person. But, I'm still crazy enough to believe that once I get this new thing figured out, I will be healthy and fully recovered again very soon. 

CFRD causes extreme fatigue and weight loss. I must admit, I've been inexplicably tired this whole year, and it only got worse as the year progressed. I chalked it up to illness and life circumstances at first, but by the time this month rolled around, I realized that it wasn't that. The phage completely took out each and every illness-causing bacteria, yet I still felt terrible, and I wasn't getting better.

I noticed that no matter how much I ate, I was losing up to two pounds a month. That's when I started to panic. I've actually been eating extra food almost every hour of the day that I'm not asleep, yet my body weight continues to drop. I have to wear sweatpants under my jeans to stay warm and keep them on. I wear three hoodies at one time inside, and I sleep under 8 blankets with my dog at my feet, yet I still get cold at night. I told all of this to my doctors, and they just nodded their heads and casually told me not to panic, but they were referring me to the diabetes doctors to get some help. I'm not dying, but I need to figure this stuff out before I do start dying.