Along these same lines, I worry that I won’t be accepted into university in the first place (even though, as I said before, logically I know I’ll get in thanks to my GPA alone). But if I do get accepted and enrolled at university, I fear that I won’t be accepted. I fear that my peers and professors will look down on me much more than some of them already have at my community college, unless I work my ass off to disguise myself as someone I’m not. 

Thing is, I know that I can’t simply dress my way away from my weirdness… for lack of better words. I am who I am even if I switch out my camo hoodies and jeans for a tweed jacket and khakis. I’d just look a bit smarter, I guess. But I sure as hell wouldn’t feel very good, therefore I wouldn’t put my best foot forward, and then I’d actually drop out of university.