I love the country life, but my health won't always let me work on the farm. I'll always get infections from time to time, that will force me to take weeks, even months off to take care of myself. It's frustrating. That's a major thing I hate about having CF. But that's also why I take advantage of the days that I'm well, because when I'm well, I'm very useful and enjoy hard, physical work. 

Sure, it's dangerous work. I've been nearly kicked by unruly horses many times, and tractors aren't known for being safe. But I already live in constant danger. Life with Cystic Fibrosis isn't safe. Life in general isn't safe. I just have to weigh the risks and the benefits, and see if it's worth it. To me, a life in an office is no life at all, and I don't have the patience or the will to deal with people like a teacher or a professor does. I also can't be a doctor, because I would catch everyone's infections and die within five years of becoming a doctor. 

With graduation coming up, I'm feeling the stress of my near-future more than ever. I guess pretty much everyone my age feels the same way I do, which is comforting in a way, but I have fears and dreams that drive me like nothing else. I know I cannot survive pent up in a cubicle, and spending 30 years working on the farm isn't very realistic either. But life on the tractor is still very appealing to me. Chances are, if I do decide to do that kind of work, it would be part time for a few weeks in the spring and fall on the family farm. Sure, I probably wouldn't be paid $20 an hour, but it would still be worth it. 

Maybe being a full-time author isn't a bad idea after all, just as long as it doesn't force me into the dreaded office cubicle or drown me in debt. My dream job would be getting a decent salary for what I do now, which is go on adventures during the day, and write during the night. But, I know that isn't the most realistic job ever. Yet, I refuse to believe I have to work construction or rack up impressive debt at college to have a fulfilling career that will keep me alive and well.