No matter what I do, I’m gonna have some level of anxiety tonight and throughout the next few weeks (if not more). Knowing that, the goal isn’t to get rid of the anxiety completely. The goal is to keep my anxiety from taking over me, much like it did while I waited for my final grades for the summer semester to come in. 

This morning, I did a couple chores around the house, then I went on a pretty long (and wonderful) hike with Eric. After that, I hit three different grocery stores, not necessarily because I had to, but because I knew that I needed to get out of the house, and turn deal-shopping into a game. At the stores, I bought almost nothing but healthy food (the only junk food I bought was a six pack of Sprite for $3.00). 

Then, I returned home and did some more chores, including tending to my garden outside and harvesting tomatoes and lettuce for my lunch tomorrow. From there, I labeled and packed up my school supplies, made sure my tuition and parking pass for the semester were paid for, and got my laundry done. After all of that, I was tired enough to take a short, afternoon nap. 

When I woke up 45 minutes later, I got up and immediately started wringing my hands over stupid shit again. Not wanting to wallow in my anxiety, I found another mundane project to distract myself with, until I felt I could relax again. Once I felt like I could relax, I sat down in my gaming chair and played a couple hours of World of Warcraft, until it was time to make and eat dinner. 

After a healthy dinner of grass-fed steak and salad from my garden, I began to wind down for bed. That included handwriting my immediate thoughts down in a journal that’ll never see the light of day, picking out my outfit for tomorrow, making sure my backpack was packed for classes, writing myself a flexible to-do list and schedule to follow tomorrow, and lastly- but most importantly- taking a long, hot shower and wrapping myself up in a warm, plush robe. 

Now, I’m sleepy and my mind is calm. Not completely calm, but calm enough to where I think I’ll be able to fall asleep and stay asleep without trouble. Assuming I get enough sleep, tomorrow, I hope, will go smoothly. 

But, there’s only one way to find out!